You'll get to see again soon. I promise. And then you'll get to write again, alright?
[ his eyes flutter shut — there's a prick of pain at his chest. emil, who was so delicate, and sensitive and kind but fought for his sake. emil, who was always hurting but still sacrificed so much someone like him until the very end. ]
Yeah. Of course. But can you promise me something?
[ there's a fleeting silence. ]
You're the type of person who hides when they're sad or scared. You do it because you want to make sure others don't worry about you. That's simply who you are.
But from now on, I want you to tell me whenever you're sad, or scared or hurting...okay? You're one of my dearest friends, Emil. I'll always...I'll always care about you.
Mm, yeah. Even if it takes awhile, I mean I'm used to waiting so it's okay.
[He's waited a thousand years. What's a bit more time in the grand scale of things?]
I promise, Nier. You're one of my dearest friends too.
[It comes after another moment of silence, as he really lets the weight of his words hit him. It was going to be hard to do that, to not mask his feelings for the sake of his friends...but if that was what Nier wanted, then he could do his best to be more open and honest.]
But if I promise that you have to do the same with me, okay? You always take on so much...I know I'm not strong and I'm pretty useless like this without my sight but I've got a pair of really good ears so I can at least listen.
[If he was going to open up then Nier had to as well. It was only fair.]
[ his voice raises a bit, like he's clearly offended. of their group, he was always the one who put on a smile for the rest of their sakes — he could never forget that.
bu then it softens, and he shakes his head.]
And you aren't useless either, so don't say things like that, okay? That isn't true.
[ emotional honesty.
what a strange concept. not something that someone like himself should indulge him, but rejecting that notion would make him a hypocrite, wouldn't it? just as always.
there's a sigh. ]
I'll try. It isn't...easy but I guess I owe you that much, huh?
[He's strong in the sense his ability to persevere and endure is something to aspire to. Emotionally, despite everything he's gone through, he's managed to keep it together. Most would break after the amount of years he's spent in forced isolation, but his cheery optimism has served him well.
If Nier says it isn't true, that he isn't useless, then what he's saying is probably true. Nier would never lie to him, that much Emil can trust in. Even so, it's hard to see from his perspective how he isn't useless. After all, what good can he do the way he is now?]
Well, you don't owe me anything Nier, but if you at least try that'd make me incredibly happy.
[The thought alone has his chest feeling warm.]
I just wish I knew how I could be of more help to you and Kainé, you know?
[He'd been given that small, little taste of independence when he'd woken up, only to have it snatched away. Now it's all he can think about.]
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Date: 2018-10-21 04:48 am (UTC)[ his eyes flutter shut — there's a prick of pain at his chest. emil, who was so delicate, and sensitive and kind but fought for his sake. emil, who was always hurting but still sacrificed so much someone like him until the very end. ]
Yeah. Of course. But can you promise me something?
[ there's a fleeting silence. ]
You're the type of person who hides when they're sad or scared. You do it because you want to make sure others don't worry about you. That's simply who you are.
But from now on, I want you to tell me whenever you're sad, or scared or hurting...okay? You're one of my dearest friends, Emil. I'll always...I'll always care about you.
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Date: 2018-10-21 04:55 am (UTC)[He's waited a thousand years. What's a bit more time in the grand scale of things?]
I promise, Nier. You're one of my dearest friends too.
[It comes after another moment of silence, as he really lets the weight of his words hit him. It was going to be hard to do that, to not mask his feelings for the sake of his friends...but if that was what Nier wanted, then he could do his best to be more open and honest.]
But if I promise that you have to do the same with me, okay? You always take on so much...I know I'm not strong and I'm pretty useless like this without my sight but I've got a pair of really good ears so I can at least listen.
[If he was going to open up then Nier had to as well. It was only fair.]
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Date: 2018-10-23 10:03 pm (UTC)[ his voice raises a bit, like he's clearly offended. of their group, he was always the one who put on a smile for the rest of their sakes — he could never forget that.
bu then it softens, and he shakes his head.]
And you aren't useless either, so don't say things like that, okay? That isn't true.
[ emotional honesty.
what a strange concept. not something that someone like himself should indulge him, but rejecting that notion would make him a hypocrite, wouldn't it? just as always.
there's a sigh. ]
I'll try. It isn't...easy but I guess I owe you that much, huh?
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Date: 2018-10-23 10:12 pm (UTC)If Nier says it isn't true, that he isn't useless, then what he's saying is probably true. Nier would never lie to him, that much Emil can trust in. Even so, it's hard to see from his perspective how he isn't useless. After all, what good can he do the way he is now?]
Well, you don't owe me anything Nier, but if you at least try that'd make me incredibly happy.
[The thought alone has his chest feeling warm.]
I just wish I knew how I could be of more help to you and Kainé, you know?
[He'd been given that small, little taste of independence when he'd woken up, only to have it snatched away. Now it's all he can think about.]